There's something I want to say...... To you, the reader, parents, teachers, friends, acquaintances, anyone who wants to listen.
At the beginning of my journey, I cared so much about others and what they thought. I spent so much time explaining, debating and trying to create an understanding of my children, our family and the way we worked!
It consumed me, I cared what you thought! I cared what you said. And I cared how you felt.
I spent lots of time in the school playground chasing my children around, sitting them somewhere quiet and away from your probing eye so I could calm them down to avoid the inevitable.
I tried picking them up early, I tried a few minutes late. In fact I tried almost everything. Nothing was good enough. It always ended the same way!
Things got bad! There was no help coming, no one understood. Or no one was willing to understand. No one cared! I cared! A lot!
I cared for my children, I cared that they didn't have real "friends"
I cared that no one spoke to us, or helped us. I cared that even after struggling so visibly the people who you put your trust in and have high expectations of clearly didn't give a shit!
I remember one day.. It was before one of my first big meetings at school.. On a support group someone told me to not enter that meeting as a parent, a mummy, a friend.
"You go in that room and be an advocate for your daughter, you are her lawyer, her voice and she needs to be heard" so that's what I did. And to my surprise I done it well! So from that moment on I didn't care anymore, about you pointing that finger, letting me struggle, talking in hushed tones behind my back, ignoring our quite clear troubles.
I didn't care that you didn't care. I wasn't fighting for you to understand anymore. It didn't matter. You'd made your mind up.
But let me tell you something now....... Regardless of your opinion, your outlook, your complete lack of understanding. There are more of ME out here, you haven't met the last. And us parents who fight so brutally for the welfare of our children, to protect our future. NOT CARING is not going to look good on you! When we reach that edge of not caring a fire is ignited and when those flames start watch out cause there's no smoke without a fire!!!